All posts tagged: #grateful

Sweetness

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I’ve been talking about Surrender all month. Most everything I’ve shared seems hard. White knuckles, sweat, anguish. Deep questions and dark answers. Foggy epiphanies. Slow acceptance. That is my story. But it’s not the whole story. I need to change the channel. Let’s look at this another way. My life is full of goodness. Sometimes when I let go, joy is waiting to rush in and surprise me. Surrendering can bring great delight. There is honey in the rock. I have countless examples: When curiosity got the best of me, I pushed through first impressions, and was delighted: Thinking the plate was full of gross bugs, then realizing they were bacon wrapped figs stuffed with goat cheese. Turning my nose up at a dress on a hanger, then finding out I looked fantastic in it. Rolling my eyes about some bossy stranger at a party, then belly laughing with them by the end of the night. When I felt my body tighten up, from fear or embarrassment, and decided to go with it anyway. All the endorphins: Standing in line …

“I Feel Fat”

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How’s your 2015 going so far?  Feeling strong?  Feeling focused?  Feeling beautiful?  Holding tight to hopes and dreams for the year? Umm, not me.  My house feels cold and we’ve had some hard surprises.  I’m coping at the stove, making hearty meals, baking gooey treats, and getting warm.  Last night I think I ate 100 delicious crispy mini tater tots.  So today, in addition to feeling cold and stressed, I feel shame.  Good times. Whenever something feels too intense (i.e. I hate it), I’m trying to get perspective and consider what Compassion could look like in it.  It’s a mental and spiritual discipline that gently erodes my shaming heart and ungratefulness. If you are dealing with tight pants and find yourself muttering, “oh gosh I feel fat,” consider these compassionate alternatives: 1.  Hungry in the Suburbs – I can’t remember the last time I’ve been legitimately hungry.  I fill my Costco and Trader Joes carts with all sorts of unnecessary (but delicious) food, experiment with fun recipes, and frequently get seconds.  But hunger lurks in the corners of my comfortable town.  According to …